I’m witting this to you while swatting away the hand of my 1.5 year old son.
Its daylight savings today. For some stupid reason, we still change the clocks back in November. I CANT remember why. I know it has something to do with farms.
Arizona doesn’t do it… and I wish I was in Arizona right now.
I’ll start off by saying its been a long weekend. My boy’s dad is away and I’m home alone (which I am, the majority of the time) With two under two.
As you know with daylight savings time, your kids go completely fucking nuts. I don’t know what it is about today that makes all kids unable to sleep…. AT ALL
My mom used to dread daylight savings and I never knew why
Mom here is a public apology: I’m sorry
Needless today I’m a bit overwhelmed today. Aside from the lack of sleep my son is teething, a toddler, and today he had decided to become jealous of his 1.5 year old brother. He’s a great kid, today he’s just a bit “emotional”
I pride myself on being a chill mom, I don’t mind cleaning up messes and I’m ok if my kid wants to eat pizza for dinner 3 nights in a row.
But today we didn’t get more then a half hour nap in. Today we didn’t get more then a half our free of whining.
Being that he is a tired, teething, picky 1.5 year old. He barely at the fantastic, healthy; minestrone soup I made today. The bag that he has been pulling out of the lazy Susan for the past two months.
So hes also hungry, but doesn’t want to eat anything but bread. (again this was me… sorry mom and everyone else who has dealt with my hanger)
So here is this poor little guy. He’s falling over because he’s tired, hangry, and he is following me around.. whining about it.
While his brother who is also teething, and tired because he can’t sleep through his older brother’s screams…
Is also screaming.
I should be sitting down and hugging my kids.
Then there is the other life that I have going on around it all. A billion places to be, an overbooked schedule. Babysitter to hire and pay, diner to make. Then figuring out how to connect my Venmo to my PayPal account because today; the internet won’t work the same as it did yesterday…
Getting a handle on housework with the lack of sleep that comes with having to use formula and make a bottle every 3 hours. (I salute you formula feeding mamas) I never appreciated the ease of rolling over and sticking a boob in my baby’s mouth more then I do now.
I’m stressed over the news, and the future for my kids. The current political situation has come to a point that I can’t ignore and its scary.
Did I mention that I just got my period back for the first time in over three YEARS?
I’m also trying to get this whole blog thing under wraps.
It’s fair to say that today has been one of the hardest days I’ve dealt with in parenting.
I tell you this through tears because I don’t think I did a good job today. I should have taken today to be away from my work. I should have sat with my kids and made today about them.
Instead, I buzzed with anxiety trying to figure out a show, or a game, or a toy, or a snack to give my son to quiet him down for long enough to answer a few emails, and to finish up the end of registering for an online class.
Guess what he needed? ME
Sometimes, it’s okay to just take the day off and BE with your kids. Today we have become so obsessed with screens, that we seem to think that just physically being in a room with our kids is enough. Its not
I feel like shit that I didn’t make today more about my kids. I feel like I could have done better. I feel like the dishes could have sat in the sink till 7pm….
Today though, has made me a better mom in the long run. When I finally took a minute to breath, and just made the rest of the day about my kids, sat with them and didn’t worry about the piles of laundry next to me. It all got better
My house has quieted down and Anthony has finally succumbed to the hypnotic sounds of Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. I’m still buzzing with anxiety, and ready for a glass of wine.
I’m putting this post out there because this blog is about normal moms. It’s not about being perfect moms. We ALL struggle. I often can get caught up in the “super mom” label. And while I’m pretty damn good at at it, some days its hard. I want you ladies to know that I get it.
It’s important on days like these, when EVERYONE in the house is crying. When we feel like, maybe we just aren’t good at this, to remember that is ok. That every ‘supermom’ has hard days. That parenting isn’t easy. Its’ okay that the laundry isn’t done.
Sometimes we need to just stop, sit on the couch, watch Mickey Mouse clubhouse and think about nothing else, other then what is exactly right there in the room.